i'd rather

Nov 18, '09 8:51 PM for everyone

i’d rather look away

when you stare into my eyes

for I might swim

to the depths

of a vast ocean

and drown,

and you would not be there

to drag me to shore.

i’d rather feign ignorance

of the beating of my heart

deaf to the humming of love

growing each day

for i might shout to the world

that my heart is in your hands,

then see it broken to pieces,

like shards of glass

which i still step on sometimes.

i’d rather be blind

to your sweetness and uniqueness

that leave me breathless

for I might not contain

your fullness in my soul.

I might embrace you tight

only to feel you

struggling to be free,

walking away.

i’d rather be a star

you say you want to reach

than be a meteor

zooming past,

shooting down,

in a blink of an eye -

forgotten.

i’d rather that you and I go on

in our separate galaxies

remembering the best,

the best of us,

and nothing else.

The embers burn

even as my tropical seasons

and your winter and autumn

have shown

that I was right all along

when I told you

all my being quivering,

that i’d rather.